My father is intelligent, patriot , classic but less in anger management because of the problems he is facing personally and so he steped into politics.So he was dialy preparing himself daily to whatever the infuture consequences that may cause.
In mean while I have been noticing every activity in home and rest part at school was of no change. As I move to the higher standard 5th class I felt that my thinking was grown up. That made me to face my problems alone and not disturbing my father. To build myself stronger physically and mentally I started learning martial arts.
My 2nd problem
I totally lost interest in my schooling and focused most of the time in developing my skills in martial arts. Then attended my first tourments in which I bagged a bronze medal that brought my hope on me. I was focused in my whole school to win a district level tourment in 3rd place. Unlikely again bullies went far level crossing their limits but this time I also bagged some friends. These friends didnt stayed with me long enough. My Father was the most happiest person to find some hope on me because I am the elder son. Then the most dangerous bandit entered my life. That is COMPARISON. My Father's elder brother's younger son (cousin) was shined in education. My Father's brother started comparing the results in regular test between me and cousin. This started my degrading of hope again. After every test I was asked for my output in exams and at results time COMPARISON interrupt and my father started kicking my ass. From them I was evenly disturbed mentally. I lost myself again but the effect was even worse than the last time. I became alone again with great grieve and support less but I got belife in myself that I am something but no nothing. I fell in love with me deepest.
In mean while I have been noticing every activity in home and rest part at school was of no change. As I move to the higher standard 5th class I felt that my thinking was grown up. That made me to face my problems alone and not disturbing my father. To build myself stronger physically and mentally I started learning martial arts.
My 2nd problem
I totally lost interest in my schooling and focused most of the time in developing my skills in martial arts. Then attended my first tourments in which I bagged a bronze medal that brought my hope on me. I was focused in my whole school to win a district level tourment in 3rd place. Unlikely again bullies went far level crossing their limits but this time I also bagged some friends. These friends didnt stayed with me long enough. My Father was the most happiest person to find some hope on me because I am the elder son. Then the most dangerous bandit entered my life. That is COMPARISON. My Father's elder brother's younger son (cousin) was shined in education. My Father's brother started comparing the results in regular test between me and cousin. This started my degrading of hope again. After every test I was asked for my output in exams and at results time COMPARISON interrupt and my father started kicking my ass. From them I was evenly disturbed mentally. I lost myself again but the effect was even worse than the last time. I became alone again with great grieve and support less but I got belife in myself that I am something but no nothing. I fell in love with me deepest.
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